I think that I found a way to tight up the mind and the belly: it’s the 528hz frequency. Music made according to this frequency puts you in this amazing state of mind. It’s proven by science to be the frequency of nature (chlorophyll, green, water,…). It is the frequency of miracle and love. Expose yourself to this frequency and you’ll just sink inside. The heart chakra is stimulated. As I am writing now my hands are going slowly. But it doesn’t bother me, as it would normally. It just seems natural. It is nature. It is the rhythm of nature. Wow! Take a listen to this meditation music made following the 528 Hz frequency: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNpzjSLtwu8 And listen to the podcast that explains in details how the frequency works, the science that backs it up and the history behind it and the reasons why all the main religions, that already knew about the frequency, didn’t want the people to know about it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cUiSMPHRrhc
The 100 days of Mind & Belly project is born!!! What is it? It is a way for me to connect my mind (awareness) with my belly (my subconscious). At the same time the images created through this project will be shared here on my blog and on social media for the next 100 days in order to connect with others’ Mind & Belly!
Today I had this assignment for my self: Where I am at with The Project? And how the blog fit into it? What affirmation can I create for my blog? I went through my journal and it has been quite a journey! I started with the what: I wanted to do an art installation. I knew that it was about connections, strings,etc.. Then I went into sculptural project about nest. But I found myself in a place that didn’t like. So I went back to the why and the original concept of Connection. Then I went into quantum physics, entanglement,etc.. That brought me to the idea of internal connection, within yourself. And an external connection with nature. So I came out with the metaphor of the tree. We are like it, in the sense that we have roots deep down into ourself (subconscious) thanks to whom we get lymph. The lymph goes through the trunk (awareness) and then become leaves and flowers and fruits (artistic expression or expression in general). So I am at the point in which I am looking for a balance between the external world and the internal one. More in specific: how do I stay connected with myself? How can I connect with people from the belly (subconscious way, not rational)? So the blog comes in as a journal of this amazing adventure. My blog documents my Subdrawings, that is my daily connections with “the belly”. And documents also my “rational” speculations about my discoveries during my research. So an affirmation for my blog could be: I write about the belly and the mind.
I started reading Eckhart Tolle’s book A new Earth, awakening to your life’s purpose. It’s incredible how many concepts are resonating with my own practice and work. Or maybe not. It’s not a coincidence if I am awaking now and many other people are. As the author says it is the right time. It’s a time where there are no more rigid religious institutions (at least in the West) that have the monopoly over spirituality. We are starting to discover our own heaven. And that was Jesus’ original message: heaven is inside yourself. Change your self and you will live in a new earth (=the reality out there). But what struck me the most was the introduction. He talked about flowers. They were the first thing in human history to not have a practical purpose. They were just beautiful. They were a window to our own beauty, to the formless. We as plants, can blossom and get to the “enlightenment”. The connection with my work is incredible. Eckhart even used the same metaphor!! In my words: when we align our roots (subconscious/formless) to our trunk (desires/thoughts) we blossom beautiful flowers (our presence in the reality/expression). Amazing! The author goes on explaining how we, humans, have a dysfunction. We always knew that. The Buddha called it dukkha, suffering, Jesus called it sin (its original meaning, “missing the target”, has been distorted by the translations), etc,… Fears and hatred and all the negativity come from the same place. Tolle believes that this place is the ego. This book is about “awakening” from being unconscious of our identification with the ego since we were babies. This realisation will automatically make us conscious of the ego and finally abandon it.
I went to the city today for Mike Parr’s exhibition at Anna Swartz gallery in Flinders Lane. Those paintings were expressing such an amazing power and strength. They came from a place inside, I could feel it. They were the expression of the source of the artist. I could give an interpretation that was my own. But all the titles were distant from my view. I guess Parr (and everyone really) would see different things in his paintings. But his paintings really stroke a chord. They really resonated with me and my practice. I could see my own Subdrawings there. And they made me think in how many different ways I could express my subconscious. I could express so much with colours, enamels, acrylic paint, etc… So much to play and create. I would go in that state of “trance” that I have when I do my Subdrawings. What if I push that feeling? What if I indulge in that feeling? Asking a question, but maybe even without asking the question before painting. What is the feeling that I would have? Food for thoughts and for practice 😉 Then I went to the Melbourne Museum. After the incident with the Aboriginal man, I promised myself to go deeper and do more researches into their culture. The exhibition First People is amazing. I didn’t have much time but my attention was caught by a video projected on a big screen. A series of Aboriginal people was talking about key words related to their culture such as family, identity, country, nature and…..connection! It’s incredible how some of their key terms are so fond to me and such a big part of my project. I feel that I am on the track that I am meant to be. A journey that is connecting me to my nature and the nature of an amazing culture. Their culture is so respectful of nature, both outer and inner nature. I feel that I have much to learn from Aborigines.
Today I am not gonna tell a dream. Today I am talking about something that happened to me few hours ago. I wish that it was a dream, but it is not. I was walking down on Smith Street, Collingwood, Australia, Earth, Universe. An Aboriginal man stopped me asking me something. I already knew that it was about money, but I decided not to judge, and listen to him. He needed money to pay for his bed tonight. 15 dollars. I gave him $1.70. He looked at me with a disappointed face and asked “Can you give me more?”. I said masking my discomfort “I’m sorry I can’t, but I guess that it’s a good start towards your 15 dollars goal”. He looked and me and angrily mumbled something. I decided to keep listening to him. I asked him if he wasn’t happy with the money I gave him and he told me that he wanted the whole 15 dollars from me. So I decided to sit down on the bench with him and to honestly try to help him. I always thought that the money doesn’t help them. I wanted to do more. So I was thinking a way where maybe I could pay him something to work with me or another way in which he could sustain him self. As soon as I sat down with him he move farther on the bench and then stood up. He looked and me and said firmly: “If you don’t go away I will kick your head!”. I was rather shocked. I tried honestly to connect with him and he was abusing me verbally for doing that. I couldn’t work out why he was doing that. I said to him “I am trying to help you”. He repeated again, this time yelling “Go away or I will kick your head!”. I couldn’t believe it. Despite the threat I wasn’t afraid. And neither was I angry. I felt sad that he reached that point in his life. I imagined his journey and how he got there. While I was walking away he yelled “Go away, you and your God will not help me!”. Maybe he thought I was going to convert him? And maybe he had so many hard experiences of white Australians trying to convert him. I don’t know. I was calm but at the same time I could hear my voice shaking a bit. I passed by a group of Aboriginal men and women and one of the women yelled at me “You don’t speak like that to my brother, you c..t!”. Wow, they perceived me as the enemy, the white enemy that tried to “corrupt” a member of the group with my “Christian” persuasion. I felt so sad. I fell powerless. I couldn’t connect. I decided not to ignore him and the result was the opposite of what I was expecting. I feel sad about it but at the same time I think that everything that happens to us is a stimulus to improve and evolve. I have been thinking lately to connect with aboriginal communities for my project. Being it about inner and outer nature, it is unavoidable to relate to the aboriginal culture and traditions. This episode in reality gave me more motivation of connecting with them even more. I don’t believe that all the aboriginal are like the guy that I met today. I believe that I came across to him as a sign that I need to go deeper. He metaphorically “kicked my head” and shook me from ignoring their culture. It’s time to connect!!
I had a strange dream tonight. I had a massive pimple on my back. I was afraid of touching it. Then I took the courage and extract it. It was disgusting when was inside but after taking it off it was like a soft ball and I felt a big relief and was really excited. Then somehow I made a lot of money out of it. I noticed that I had a tattoo on that part of the body. Where the pimple was I could see the skin indented. Possible interpretation: the pimple was my art. For long time I was afraid of looking at it (= the pimple is on my back). In my dream I was gonna ask someone to extract it for me, but then I decided to do it myself. I was really satisfied of doing it. Relieved. Feelings that I had when I did my first steps into my art. Suddenly I could see and touch my art (=pimple as a soft little ball in my hand) and not be afraid. Then in the dream I sell the ball and make money. That would be the part when I will be selling my artworks!!! Tattoo: only after the extraction I can see the tattoo. It could be the liberation from the block. The extraction liberated all the creativity and imagination in my self + the tattoo is on my skin, on my self. I am the art itself, it is a part of myself.
It’s a technique that I developed at the end of last year. The first drawing is dated 27th November 2014. I was inspired by Enrique Enriquez, an artist from New York, featured in the documentary Tarology. He reads tarots and every kind of sign really, in an intuitive way. That made me wonder if I could read my own “signs”. Signs made by my own hand when I draw without consciously thinking of what I am drawing. That way I can tap into my subconscious. They say that we use around 10% of our brain. My drawings are made by the rest 90% of my brain 🙂 I then interpret my own drawings, this time using an analytical approach. I want to go a bit deeper with this blog. I want to document the process and the feeling. I want to understand if I can tap into my depth with or without the drawings. I have been using Subdrawings when I had doubts about practical things. I want to know my subconscious believes about the matters. This drawing is an example. I always start with a question and keep that in mind while I am drawing. Here the doubt is about my scooter. I had to bring it to the mechanic because it wouldn’t start. Bad news: the damage is worth about $800!! So the question is simple: “How do I feel towards my scooter?”. I would usually ask a more specific question but this time I decided to try a more generic one. This is the drawing: I believe that anyone would see different things. That’s because, unless it’s a clear and recognasable image or sign, we all have different experiences in life and different nuronal connections. So the following is what I see. My interpretation: on the left hand side a bird looking figure. It seems almost at an embryonal stage, it’s body looks like a larva or caterpillar. It has a helmet with the number 46 written on it. I recognise my self in the caterpillar-bird. I am usually in all my drawings. I recognise my self thanks to hints. This time is the helmet (I ride a scooter) and the number 46 (my favourite motobike rider is Valentino Rossi and his number is 46). On the right hand side I see my scooter. It is in a vertical position, like on a wheely. I am holding onto it with my right wing. But at the same time I see my self handing my scooter out. I am wearing the helmet of one of the fastest man on a motorbike in the world. I feel ready to change. The scooter served me well, but it’s time to change (from caterpillar to butterfly). In my left hand side I have a sort of crab claw. Am I ready to grab my new motobike? What was my feeling when I was drawing and interpreting? While I am drawing I am not thinking of anything. I only see the aesthetic of the lines, I am in the present. I am not thinking what I am going to draw. I am not in the past because I am not interpreting what I already drew. I am whatching the line being drawn and that’s all really. The only thing I think of is the question, but it sits on the background. When I feel that the drawing is finished I put it on a stand. I feel that I have to put some distance between me and the drawing. It is time to be more rational and use the 10% of my brain 🙂 But it’s very important the feeling that I have when I feel that the drawing is complete. How do I know if the drawing is finished? I feel a sense of completion. It’s hard to describe, but afterall it’s the same feeling that you have when you are doing something and then suddednly you realise that is enough. You’ll know it. While interpreting, intuition is important too. So I keep an open mind because I am trying to spot as many recognisable signs as I can. They can be obvious (the bird and the scooter) or harder to detect (the claw). Then when I have all the signs in place I try to understand the meaning of it. Remember this is not reading the future. This is a process to understand what your subconscious “thinks” about a certain matter. At this point a doubt could arise: there are at least two valid interpretations of this drawing. One is that I am holding onto the scooter. The other is that I am handing it over. One basically means “don’t let it go” and the second “it’s time to change”. So they contraddict each other. How do I know what to choose? Again this drawing has been made by your hand and your mind. You know what is the real interpration. You already know but somethimes you don’t want to accept the anwer. I know it’s hard to let my scooter go and spend money on a new or second hand motobike, but I know that that is the message. The look on the bird is not a happy one (it looks like shocked). And I was shocked. But I know that it’s time to let it go.
Enthusiasm, from ancient Greek: “possessed by a god, inspired, in contact with the Absolute”. Whereas fear is connected mainly with the past, enthusiasm is linked to the future, to the unknown, to what is yet to come, to all the open possibilities. The attitute we have towards the future is paramount! If I fear something, I will increase the possibilities that it will become a reality. If I act with a enthusiastic attitude I will increase the positive outcomes of my future! But, again, it’s essential aligning my subconscious belief with the conscious desire. Only if I am honestly enthusiastic I can create a positive future!
Yesterday I was on the tram and I saw a tree. How many times you see a tree and don’t actually see it? Well yesterday I saw it! And something clicked. I saw the trunk and the leaves and the branches. But then I imagined the roots. And bam! It clicked right there. It’s the image I was looking for to align the subconscious with the conscious mind. Ok, let’s step back. So, briefly, we all know that we have a subconscious mind, right? (thank you Sigmund!). And we all know that we have a conscious mind. Now when the two are not aligned we are unhappy. Eg: we really want to be rich (conscious desire) but somewhere in our subconscious there is the belief that we will never be rich. There it is a misalignment! But when the two are aligned a flow of energy channels into the reality and the universe. So I drew the picture above (left hand side) to make it clear. But when I saw the tree I realised that it was the perfect example of what I was trying to represent. The roots represent the subconscious (hidden under the soil). The nutrients are extract from the soil and channelled into the trunk (that is naturally aligned!). From the trunk (consciousness) the lymph goes into the branches and from there to leaves and flowers (=reality but also what we are projecting into the future!). That is why I was so happy to see the tree from the tram 🙂 !!! Through my work and life I am personally trying to align my trunk with my roots. But what we generally miss in this natural equation is the branches and leaves and flowers. We could potentially have amazing and thick branches but we are satisfied with one or two green branches. I will go more in depth in one of my future posts but I’ll briefly explain what I mean. We grew up in a society that mainly thinks in cause-effect terms. If something happens today the cause must be in the past. In reality everything changed last century when a terrific group of superheros…sorry, of scientists discovered how classic physics doesn’t apply to the subatomic world. The deeper we go into reality the weirder things get! An example is the “Heisenberg’s uncertainty principle”. Basically we can’t do any experiment with subatomic particles without affecting their behavior!! I am still surprised how all these amazing discoveries didn’t change our perspective on the world! Yes, because what Heisenberg discovered is that our consciousness is affecting the reality! Yes because guess what is the universe made of? Exactly, subatomic particles!! Consciousness is not just an abstract concept, it is a practical and concrete thing! So, Nadin, what all this has to do with the tree? Oh, yes, so basically we are affecting the reality. But practically that means that we are creating our own future! Time and space are part of our universe. The universe doesn’t distinguish if it’s future or past or present. It is our brain that, through the evolution and to make sense of the reality, created this vision. So we think that a certain cause created a certain effect only because we can see it before our eyes. But what we are doing is exactly the opposite. Our consciousness (that is a real thing, remember!) is creating negative or positive thoughts, fears or desires,etc.. and all of this is affecting the reality that will be (Heisenberg’s uncertainty principle + Universe doesn’t distinguish time). The Universe doesn’t distinguish between negative and positive either so it will realise whatever thought was most prominent in our mind. Booooom!!! So it’s what we throw into the future that is dragging us towards it and not what we did in the past that is pushing us! Here it comes the analogy with the leaves and flowers. You can have amazing and thick branches, but that is up to you. You project and throw your desires into the universe/future. But careful, only if they are aligned with your true subconscious believes they will be strong enough to blossom! I have explained all these concepts very briefly. The book where I found all these infos is written by Fabio Marchesi, an Italian physicist but unfortunately there is no English translation. But I will find something similar in English 😉 Happy thoughts!!! Nadin